Excited, nervous, happy, knot-in-the-stomach, impatient, overjoyed, sad…. today my emotions jump from one extreme to another. Today is the big day. Tonight, I’ll board the first plane of many, many planes to follow that will fly me around the world. I will leave behind all that I know in exchange for the unknown.
“To explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no one has gone before” – well, that Star Trek line is clearly exaggerated but I sure feel like boarding my own private Enterprise! Although it makes me feel truly alive and full of energy, it also scares the sh*t out of me.
It is exactly the reason why I insisted on making this a solo adventure though: to face my fears and just get going anyway. To experience what I already know deep down: whatever happens, I will be able to deal with it, as long as I let go of expectations, but above all, let go of the need to be in control (as if you ever could, really!).
And so, I will leave behind my sweetheart, my house, my dogs, my job and simply take that first step. It comforts me though that my late dad will be watching over me. For years I have seen him go through the same emotions, every time he was getting ready to travel to the unknown, leaving behind his family. And then listen to his stories of what he had experienced and discovered in these far away countries once back home.
Today’s date is not chosen randomly. I chose it to honour my dad as it is his birthday today. Thank you, dad, for passing on to me the curiosity bug. I promise I will make good use of it!
A bit of a paradox, but this whole ‘solo adventure’ aspect to this epic trip, turned out to be a huge reminder that I am not an island. I am surrounded by people (close and afar) that have been counting down the days with me, are excited with me, and who will accompany me on my trip – albeit virtually.
Therefore, let me not end with a good bye. Just a ‘catch you later’ will do.
p.s.: to the aspirant burglars out there reading this, there will be house/dog-sitters so don’t bother.